...If you ask I'm ready...

A favorite song of mine went, "...if we did the unthinkable would it make us look crazy or would it be so beautiful?"  I lulled that line over and over in my head as I was safely and comfortably nestled in my covers late on a cold December night.  I was excited, nervous, impatient, unsure if I was ready for what was about to be.

I rolled over to face the wall and gently placed my hand on the wall, symbolically reaching out to that special someone who asked me to do the unthinkable with him.  I was so nervous, people would look at us and not see us as the normal or standard cookie cutter couple.  I was worried that we might look "crazy".  But should I care about that?  The both of us come from two separate backgrounds and cultures.  At times all I could see is what made us different and allowed the crippling fear of us falling apart come into my heart.

I rolled over onto my other side frustrated that sleep wasn't coming but unwilling to acknowledge that my mind was the one in-sighting insomnia.  But it creeped back into my mind our differences and what could come of it.  Should I care that we are so different with such different likes and backgrounds?  The only thing that I really cared about was how he made me feel and the love I felt from him.  And when it really came right down to it, I could overlook all those little things because he made me fell, well, worth it.  He made me feel worth the trouble, the thought and consideration.

That was the last thought that crept into my mind as I was swiftly taken to sleep only to awake the next morning with the excited movements of my sister and my best friend getting ready for the wedding.  I started to get ready as if it was a normal day until I started getting my hair and make up ready.  Thats when my friends took over and started going on and on about what was to happen.  The anxiety I felt started to wane as I got caught up in the moment and laughed and giggled with my friends as my special day was about to begin.

My anxiety swiftly returned when I heard a special someone come into my apartment to pick me up to head to the temple.  We finished the last of the preparations for hair and make up and I walked out to meet him.  I was still nervous wondering if I was making the right decision.  He took me and we headed off to the temple in the blizzard that was setting in on my special day.

As we pulled up to the temple the nervous feeling started to leave me and I started to feel calm and at peace.  My special someone came and opened the door for me and I couldn't help but smile at how good he is to me.  We walked hand in hand to the temple door that lead to the path of eternity.  He looked to me and opened the front door.  I met him square in the eye smiling and remembering the final line, "...if you ask me I'm ready."